aha

Who wants to go dancing. I do lets go ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhwoooooooooooo tonight i wanna go ahhhhhhhhhhhwoooooooooooooooo tonight, tonight tonight. Yeah if u recognize the song kudos to u my special friend.

regret

Um well i have to start another blog for school. Lol um i haven't really been funny lately uh. Well home comings gonna be great I'm going with two of my besties and this one guy whose also my bestie. um have a great idea tell ur best catfish story.

signed
~dissapointedinmyself~

holas

haven't blogged in forev lol still no followers how sad am i. i just must not be that interesting. Um school is a bore super hard I'm already tired of it. Who's ready for homecoming i am. Yeah all of us are gonna have a super amazing time. zahs rents are picking us up and dropping as off. they are so sweet. Oops have to finish chemistry hm sees ya.


Signed
~beautifullyignored~

The hardest thing i have ever done

I dedicate this paper to Aaron Burke who yesterday without knowing it
talked me into telling one of the hardest things Ive ever done. 
I punch and scream at the pillow and it doesn't help,
It doesn't heal the pain, it doesn't stop the pain
I still hear the words ringing in my ears,
I wish this pillow was his face,
I wish he could feel the same way i feel right now,
Alone, mad, terrified, and sad.
Again i wish this pillow where his face,
Because maybe then he could feel some of what i felt.
The pillow did not become his face
It did not any way become some sort of voodoo doll either.
Again i wish this pillow where his face.
Over the years the pain has healed or maybe Ive just hidden deeper
inside me.
I have forgiven him. It was the hardest thing i had to do,
But it had to be done.
I no longer wish this pillow where his face.
I instead wish he could be healed like i have been, 
He could feel what i feel now.
Peace , happiness and fulfilment.
I no longer wish this pillow where his face.

hi exciting news

Will be starting vlog. yeaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!! :) first video will hopefully be up by sunday. Very happy uh youtube vids will be up by next weekend just gotta get my guts up.. Oh good news im going back to barbizon yeahhhh! they have been contacting me like crazy. so i finally said what the hell. um so yeah going to barbizon go me.

Colorado

Hmm the taste of colorado not gonna be like super awesome with out my biddies but going downtown with ZZ and S. So gotta give something up to do another thing u wants to do. ;) oh yeah baby here i come colorado. Omg almost forgot Bret Michaels is gonna be there yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he was the lead singer of Poison and is so flippin sexy have u seen his hair. That is one seriously fine rock star. Hope to see u there even if u dont know who i is meeting new peoples is funtastic.
Lurvs u

~bretmichaelsloverjk~

Pissed at well my family i guess

Mood: i hope ur having a great one caused mines fucked up at the moment.
Music:He is We play list

Moments ago i was in my safe haven chewing on tomato basil crackers grape crush pop and reading in the bathroom. No not while using it. Its the only place they cant bother me. If everyone thinks ur using the bathroom their not gonna bother you. And my mom wonders why im in there all the time. I cant believe this being always pissed at this this life. It seems like there isnt any thing i can do that makes a difference. Thank God i have friends u guys are the only ones that keep me sane seriously. My ex keeps asking why i write when no one reads it except for the people i allow to know i write it and my answer is. I guess it takes my mind of things and feels like talking to some one about the things that utterly bore some one else. Lol the Internet is my # uno confidant sad but true. Plans have changed who wants to go to october fest with me. I seriously can not be there with just the units it would drive me crazy. ZZ i hope u can come u to S. He is We really rocks for these moments. Definetley recommend. Done ranting bye bye for now.
Lurv
~pissedtotheextreme~