lonley

so need a boyfriend urgh are there any good guys out there!!!!!!!!!!! Oh God grant me this one wish and give me  a boyfriend.

The Other Riley

Siona had a full, and fantastic life, filled with great friends, nice parents, all that anyone would be blessed to have. She was genuinely happy something most people aren't. Her life seemed immaculately perfect but there was one thing Siona didn't have, and it was the thing she wanted the most. It was the secret her parents had hidden from her for so long, that she had found out. It had happened sixteen years ago in Dubai where she had been born along with another child. When the hospital released her mother they wanted to get back to the states with their children, as soon as possible. Tragedy hit when they found out that since their hospital bill was so large, they had to leave something dear to them, as to reassure the people that they would pay. So painfully the parents left one of their beloved new babies, in Dubai with a friends cousin. When they got to the sates life was hard, even after they payed off the hospital bill they couldn't have their child sent to them, they didn't have enough money to take care of the both of them. So the other child stayed in Dubai, while Siona got to be here in the United States. When her parents had finally made a good enough living to be able to send for the other child, they opted not to it had been ten years, she wouldn't have known who they where, and they could never explain why they had left her. That was the story the short, and sad story of Haley, Riley the other Riley daughter. One night Siona prayed to God to help her find Haley. Siona hoped God would heed her prayer, for it was her last chance.


One night in the dead of winter Siona's family was on their way home when the car stalled and slid to a stop three miles from home. Sionas father jumped out to see what he could do, to get the car moving again. While Sionas mother tried to reassure Siona that everything would be alright. The car was getting cold and Siona thought rather than waiting for the Triple A guys to show up, she would rather start walking. Her mother pleaded with her to stay back but he wouldn't. The air smelled clean, unlike the cars fake warmth, mixed with her mothers perfume. She could feel her  cheeks turning pink from the cold, her steps slowed, but she knew if she stopped all hope would be lost, and her purpose would be defeated, because she would have to return to the car. So she trudged on turning a sharp corner she hit some one, as she staggered and murmured a sorry. She was appalled to hear the sound of an echo of her voice in the person. Looking up she saw that it wasn't just an echo of her that this person had, they also had her face. Siona screamed, "Haley!!!!"  Siona's eyes started to water, and before she hugged her sister she gave a quick prayer of thanks to God. Halley was astonished, as Siona started to re- tell the story, anger, understanding, and pain showed on Haley's face. "I'm so glad God brought you to me." Siona said.


Weeks passed the sisters became closer than ever, but neither could part with the people they had grown up with, to be together all the time. So when time came for Haley to leave Siona said goodbye, but she knew it would only be for awhile, until she went to visit. When Siona went back to school and was asked the old age question, of what her favorite Christmas present had been, she simply answered. "Haley, Haley Riley the other Riley."

aha

Who wants to go dancing. I do lets go ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhwoooooooooooo tonight i wanna go ahhhhhhhhhhhwoooooooooooooooo tonight, tonight tonight. Yeah if u recognize the song kudos to u my special friend.

regret

Um well i have to start another blog for school. Lol um i haven't really been funny lately uh. Well home comings gonna be great I'm going with two of my besties and this one guy whose also my bestie. um have a great idea tell ur best catfish story.

signed
~dissapointedinmyself~

holas

haven't blogged in forev lol still no followers how sad am i. i just must not be that interesting. Um school is a bore super hard I'm already tired of it. Who's ready for homecoming i am. Yeah all of us are gonna have a super amazing time. zahs rents are picking us up and dropping as off. they are so sweet. Oops have to finish chemistry hm sees ya.


Signed
~beautifullyignored~

The hardest thing i have ever done

I dedicate this paper to Aaron Burke who yesterday without knowing it
talked me into telling one of the hardest things Ive ever done. 
I punch and scream at the pillow and it doesn't help,
It doesn't heal the pain, it doesn't stop the pain
I still hear the words ringing in my ears,
I wish this pillow was his face,
I wish he could feel the same way i feel right now,
Alone, mad, terrified, and sad.
Again i wish this pillow where his face,
Because maybe then he could feel some of what i felt.
The pillow did not become his face
It did not any way become some sort of voodoo doll either.
Again i wish this pillow where his face.
Over the years the pain has healed or maybe Ive just hidden deeper
inside me.
I have forgiven him. It was the hardest thing i had to do,
But it had to be done.
I no longer wish this pillow where his face.
I instead wish he could be healed like i have been, 
He could feel what i feel now.
Peace , happiness and fulfilment.
I no longer wish this pillow where his face.

hi exciting news

Will be starting vlog. yeaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!! :) first video will hopefully be up by sunday. Very happy uh youtube vids will be up by next weekend just gotta get my guts up.. Oh good news im going back to barbizon yeahhhh! they have been contacting me like crazy. so i finally said what the hell. um so yeah going to barbizon go me.